So just for context, I'm African (22/F) and our greater societies REALLY do not care about mental health issues and so on, Although there are many upcoming youths who are speaking up. As of recently, I have been more aware of my struggle because I have been really struggling with work productivity and really struggling with anxiety, and so on. It has started to affect me severely and the unfortunate thing is it affects the relationship I have with my parents the most.

The number of times I have thought about killing myself has increased a lot in the last half of 2021, and so I decided I would get some help. As a student I can't afford at all any psychiatrist visits, but I could afford a therapist for one month and it helped a lot but I felt like it was not really changing much? I feel like I can go the gym and read self-help books and implement the structures all the time but the pain and sadness and stuff just will not go away. Things have been getting really bad recently but I can not talk to anyone about it. No one in my family understands that though, and this side of me aside and I am always so stuck.

It's all really hard.