I feel like I really need to start string more in my life as right now I a must surviving. The complacency is ruining my life and making it hard to do anything. I've been listening to the song Catching fire by Sum 41 and it just reaffirms that the only reason I am here is because my friends and family would be sad if I killed myself. I'm tired of the complacency and living in such a shitty mood, but I don't really know what to do and how to change. I've tried going to the doctors, but they can only do so much. I feel like I really want to help others with mental health issues, but I'm already on my second bachelor's degree and going back for a 3rd seems stupid. I need to actively fight back against my depression and white knuckling it won't last forever. Just feeling confused and regretting choices right now. I know I need to change so that I don't put my family through any more pain than they have already been through. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.