Sometimes, i don’t want to be in this game of life anymore. I don’t have answers to the questions everyone asks. I don’t know if my career is a sustainable one for me. I don’t know if i can stand being lonely for the rest of my life and feeling like i can’t connect to my family. I don’t know if i can stand watching him fall in love with all those beautifully fit gorgeous intelligent happy women that aren’t me. They say things get better and i can make the right choices for me. What if my choice is to just end it so that i don’t have to stay in this cycle anymore? My family won’t have to worry about me anymore. And i don’t have to feel anything. No more questions to answers and no more feeling inadequate at work, around friends or with any person i love. Update: thank you for all the comments. Many share the same sentiment and many others are very encouraging to keep staying positive and keep trying at life. Thank you for all the positive messages.