I feel trapped in a state of feeling worthless and inferior, feeling like my life is mundane or not worth living. Feeling lackluster, ignorant and foolish. But also feeling deep down something good may come that might prove I’m worth something, then to have it all crashing down and be a lot lower then I was before. Pathetic and useless, and a burden. I think watching an upbeat protagonist with determination and hard work and have other acknowledge them has a huge impact on me but seems to go the opposite for me. I’m a terrible person that doesn’t deserve good things. I think I lie to myself too much that I’m starting to believe it.