So my birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and I always get really depressed around this time of year. It’s just I feel like I’m not accomplishing anything I want to. Everyone usually forgets about it too, and whatever plans I make usually fall through. It’s like no matter what, I never enjoy my birthday. This year is especially hard too because I just lost my grandfather last month, and it’s my first birthday in recovery. I really hate feeling like a burden on people so I’ve kinda been bottling everything up and not talking about it, but that just triggers my anxiety; and I’m at the point where I’m about to explode if I keep shoving everything down. I’m just sick of everyone telling me things will get better, when I always end up in this same rut