I don't know if this is how it is for others, but sometimes I feel depression can have its perks.

I feel like I function a bit better when I'm more depressed compared to other days. I painfully push myself to move through the day waiting for evening to come so I can slide under my covers and blare music into my ears.

I attempt to work as diligently as I can in hopes that the next time I eye the clock, it's already time to go. I glaze my eyes over books and papers for school just so I can get this shit over with.

It's not because of self gratification knowing that you've accomplished so much and blah blah bullshit. It's just about me wanting to get back to the safety of my bed and contemplate if I want to wake up to see another day.

I dunno if others feel or do the same and I know that some people suffering from depression just don't have the energy to get up and do anything. I just can't even stand to be in my bed for long periods of time and if I do, I fall deeper and deeper into that hole.

Just something I wanted to get out there because I am lonely and have no friends to talk to.

Thanks, Reddit.