my depression manifests randomley and latley it's been giving lots of classic physical pain. The brain buzzing, that pulsing feeling in my chest, aching, etc. It's become a lot for me to handle. Today I was at work (I drive a lot at work) and it suddenly hit me like a weight. I felt so violently depressed I just wanted to crash my car. In between the moments I'm not depressed I just feel empty and alone. Yesterday was a rare ok moment but other than that it's been extremley hard. I'm just very alone right now. No one is reaching out o me, my partner is too busy to care about how i'm doing. I feel like a burden on all of the people in my life and I feel like they keep me around and talk to me when I approach them out of pity. Other than that no one cares. I don't know what to do I feel like I should do everyone a favor and just go but at the same time that's rediculous and I'm just having another episode aaaaaaaaaagh