So I’m 18. I’ve only had 2 friends through my entire life, and have never dated. I recently just got a new summer job at a restaurant, and all my co workers are girls. I have Asbergers, so not only am I already awkward, but I lack any sort of common sense, so I tend to mess up a lot when it comes to the work I’ve been doing. I’ve been working here for like a month, and I feel like everyday I mess something up. I’ve been trying so hard to make a good impression on these people so that maybe I could actually make some friends for once, but now I’m getting the impression that they’re starting to either hate me or I annoy them. The reason why is honestly due to the fact that not only do they laugh around me when I walk in to work now, but they also never talk to me much when I try and talk to them. I’m just so over this crap. This literally happens every social situation or event I get into, and I’m so tired of it. I honestly wish that if I no longer existed that things would be better for everyone, because I guarantee that my family probably thinks I’m a failure.