Hey everyone I'm new to the community and reddit in general so if I mess up sorry. I've been doing good for the last 6 months or so and by good I mean relatively normal. My mood is what I would call neutral(neither good nor bad) most days , but I've had a lot more good days this year. I feel way better than I used too, but I feel like I need more. Honestly feeling guilty because I know a lot of people are struggling. A friend from high school told me he tried to kill himself a couple months ago and it honestly terrified me. I felt guilty for not knowing and not being able to help. Remembering myself at my worst day after day not wanting to live. I never want to get back to that point. I've never had someone tell me that so I was just trying to relate and empathize with him. I'm trying to get my life together but the motivation is really hard some days and the anxiety is pretty bad right now. I've been putting off some phone calls for a couple months now and nearly freak out when I try. It's even worse trying to drive. Every time I even think about driving I get really anxious like blood pumping kind of anxious. I know I need to get ny license, but it scares the shit out of me even thinking about driving most days. I just feel like I'm in the best part of my life at least considering the last 6 years or so and I need to make some progress. Any advice on dealing with a suicidal friend or about getting things done in your life or how you deal with the anxiety would be much appreciated. Sorry if this post got too long. Thanks in advance.