Whenever I successfully apply myself to something like doing a good job at work or getting a scholarship for grad school, I feel worse and like I’m unworthy of anything. I fixate only on the negative (i could have done better etc) and I feel like I don’t deserve any positive feedback.

Most of the time I wish I could live in a remote island and find a way to sustain myself alone. Like I’m a burden to my family and to my friends - and the world is better if I don’t exist. Like everything I do - I shouldn’t be allowed to do it (work in my industry, be in a relationship etc) and that I’m constantly undeserving of anything I’m given whether I get it by pure luck or even if I worked hard for it.

I know that I’m not the only one who faces this based on article I read on the internet. I’m afraid to talk about it to my close friends because I don’t want them to see me as weak or overly sensitive.

Does anyone know a way to help build self-worth and get past this feeling?