So about 2 weeks ago I lost my ESA he’s a toad and he has went missing In my house I’ve searched every nook and cranny but I just can’t find him

2 days later I got into a serious car accident i got pinned in my car (should have been dead) jaws of life had to get me out I hit a empty bob cat trailer hauled by a dump truck it was crossing the HWY and I collided with it have had no reaction time. I’m walking awake with 9 stitches and a lot of bruising. I got very lucky

2 days later I had a miscarriage it was an unplanned pregnancy. My SO was threatened our relationship and forcing an abortion on me I wasn’t going to follow through after the accident but I guess the stress and trauma had other priorities. This really brought out the truth in my relationship and I’m so torn because of it my SO has not cared to see me at all during this time in my life but once I go to therapy I will be kicking him to the curb.

2 days after the miscarriage I had contractions it was the most pain if felt I was given heavy pain killers to manage the pain

4 days later my doctor called to check up on me and I’ve been lost completely lost I can’t seem to catch up with everything that is happening my depression has been so debilitating my life has been completely flipped upside down and I’m just lost my doctor upped my antidepressants in hopes it will help me.

Today I was looking at my fish and my one fish my betta wasn’t eating upon further examination she’s got dropsy and is fully pineconed she’s got a death sentence and I can’t do anything about it

I’m barely hanging on I feel like I’m shutting down everything that was is gone and I’m actively terrified of what I’m going to lose next my family members are very stone cold and self centred they believe mental health issues are a hoax and that I should be glad I’m alive I’m not happy that I’m alive right now I’ve lost so much. I’m terrified to lose what I do have left.