I wish covid was over and i had some sort of normality in my life. I feel as if i am limbo most of the time with no direction in my life, no goals, nothing to look forward too. Its shit. I spend too much time alone which isnt healthy. Im still young and should be going out but due to lack of friends i stay in all the time. Even though i used go out on my own quite often. I just wish i felt a little better. Im depressed and Im frustrated at my lack of anything. I just find certain things very difficult, being around people randomly is one of them. I cant go on a night out arranged on the day, it will freak me out and i wont go, that being said, if i knew i was going out in advance i will be absolutely fine and be no bother at all. I just feel i am kinda at a crossroads do i want to keep going as i am or do i want to change things and better myself. My problem is i get in my own way a lot and i need to stop that. Im just so frustrated with it all and frustrated at myself for becoming a hermit