I have been feeling lonelier than ever here recently. The feeling of overwhelming anxiety and a state of unhappiness. I don’t understand where I went wrong or what I have done to get here mentally. I was done so wrong and I have done nothing but overthink and overwhelm myself. I can’t erase or escape this feeling of being alone no matter how much I try to shake it. When Im around those I truly love I still feel alone. Why is this? I don’t want to kill myself or be killed, but I want to not wake up. I don’t want to feel any pain anymore. It would be better for everybody else if I wasn’t here, everybody already has their own lives and I lost mine. Nobody understands when I tell them that my mind is a prison. What can I do to escape.. how you can you explain something to somebody if you don’t understand it yourself.