Basically what the title states, but I dont mean admitting that i am depressed... I know I am and I have been for years. I mean being afraid to tell someone about it for fear they are going to push you away because they do not want to deal with having someone with a mental illness in their life.

My girlfriend of a year and a half broke up with me the day after christmas. It was definitely my fault but I've always been terrified of trying to actually talk to her about my depression and what sort of thoughts it puts in my head that I have no control over because I'm terrified that she would not want me in her life anymore. Now she's saying she wants to stay friends but I dont know if I want that or not. I dont know if I could handle that.