Over the past year things have been getting worse mentally for me. I write in a journal, take meds and just started therapy. I was told I should be easier on myself but I don’t think I bring anything to the table anymore. I’m not very good at anything. I’m quiet. Not smart. I’m emotional and sensitive. Not funny. I’m losing friendships as I’ve gotten older. At work I tend to tell myself I’m small, weak and dumb if anything goes wrong. If I don’t get validation from others I think I’m worthless. Thoughts of dying have been more frequent then ever before. I’m realizing I haven’t been truly happy since I was a teenager. I don’t like who I am and how I act whatsoever. How do you learn to love yourself when you don’t respect your own qualities?