I had a four month relationship, it ended mutually because, logically, we aren't a good mix. But I have this gnawing idea in my mind that if I could just have forced myself to be better in some way, it would've been better.

Last year I kicked my suicidal depression to the curb; I'm not suicidal this time around but I'm so sad. My work ethic is gone, my drive is gone, my passions are exhausted. I just feel like nothing.

I started this semester with 6 classes. 1 I passed (short class); 1 I dropped, and the other 4 im behind on work and I'm gonna probably fail 2 of them. I had a mental breakdown today at my university while I was working.

My mother has vision issues so I have to drive her places, my brother has chronic fatigue so the house projects he's working on are slow and the house is in chaos; my half brother leaves his nephews with us half the week and I just am breaking down over it all.

I'M SO FUCKING DONE I JUST KEEP FAILING WHY CAN'T I JUST GET THINGS DONE WHY AM I SO WORTHLESS WHY CAN'T I JUST STOP FEELING