I don't have any friends anymore and the thought of socialising or trying to make new friends scares me. But I feel alone.

I feel like I'm on autopilot most days. Get up, work my 9-5, watch tv, go to bed, repeat. I have a partner who suffers from depression and lately it's hard been hard to be that support he needs. My folks have made it hard for our relationship to be normal, they don't accept it. I have to lie everytime I'm with him. That makes me feel like a spineless and awful girlfriend.

I used to be a bright and bubbly person but it's easy to switch it on and off. I find it exhausting. I've lost motivation and have no passion.

I've been out of school for 6 years and too often now I get the feeling I wish I could have done the last 6 years over again.

I get scared that this is all that I have to live for. If you read this, I'm sorry I just needed to let this out.