So I’ve been sleeping terribly even with getting 8 hours for years and the past well year and a half it has gotten worse. I can’t seem to focus on things from jumping between games to my new delivery jobs which I’m not a fan of any jobs anymore I just want to huddle up. To extending my hand and being patient about a friend owing sums of money. Like wow even my diet has well still been utter crap but it’s somehow been worse. My heart feels like it’s bursting from anxiety, my head feels clanky like a brick is bumping back and forth in it. I have either chronic or tension headaches all day, exercise whether cardio or core really doesn’t loosen me up much and. Well worst of all my guitar playing has been insanely rusty and the worst part of that is it’s my brain is stopping me from feeling because creative. I’m lethargic no matter my sleep schedule or how many activities I do I am a dragging homunculus. I hardly like even like leaving my bed or the couch and did I mention I can’t focus on video games too? I mean I’ve made myself out to be a hermit through years of being intimidated of going out and being large groups of friends because it’s exhausting. But over the past 7-8 years especially I’ve really tried to suck it up and let the butterflies run loose from time to time. And Covid ruined that whole progress and now let’s face it people will want to quarantine away from others until the virus is done. Which is smart but I really hate the boomerang effect that made my depression nose dive even more. I’ve been looking at Psychiatrists to try with an almost empty bank to try to turn things around and recover. But every single one I look at breaks the bank. What should I even do anymore?