I'm depressed, that much is obvious. I don't feel like there's anyone I can talk to. I don't think it's anyone else's fault, I've just done and feel things so terrible that nobody should have to deal with them. I think I might be the worst person I know. I'm trying to be a better person but I haven't proven myself to be. I know the things not to do, but what about things already done? I know I have to forgive myself, but I don't know how to or what that means. The best I've managed is to not think about those things, to not talk about them. I think there's something wrong with me. Why do I even want to talk about all the bad things I've done? There's already plenty of people who know what I've done. I know even if they judge me for those things they've forgiven me, though they wouldn't want to talk about it further. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I've already signed up for therapy online, but I mean in the mean time. I can't leave the past alone and it hurts all the time.