I feel like my body is just on autopilot now, go to work, go home, maybe eat something then bed. Everything is just so numb I don't even know why I bother anymore. Everything I used to love is has just turned into a tedious task and I feel like nothing I do is ever right. I have practically zero friends. I rarely leave my house anymore unless it's to go to work. I wrote a suicide note the other day. Am I ever gonna need it? Probably not. I had a friend commit suicide last year and I remember how much is broke me. I'm only 22. I truthfully thought I'd never make it this far and I dont know what to do. This is not how I imagined how my life would turn out when I was a kid. Why does nobody even care about me? Why am I like this? Why does nobody fucking love me?