Not going to sugar coat it or anything, but my new born daughter was taken and hidden away from me 3 days after the birth by the mother and blocked all comms. Not only would it be my first and only child's first christmas (a child ive always wanted, but got lucky after hearing years i ago the chances of me impregnating a woman were extremely low) it would also be her 1 month bday on the 24th. All of my family but my mother havent spoke to me in years and this christmas just feels...i dont even know. Ive never felt this heavy of a depression and pain in my life. So i was hoping maybe you fellow redditors out there may have an idea or two for something i could do or see to help make this holiday season even the slightest bit enjoyable?