Hello,

Age: 18

Location: UK

Gender: male

Diagnosed with: Psychotic Depression, Anxiety

I’m on so much medication and I don’t seem to be getting better. I am getting worse.

My medications are:

• Mirtazapine 30mg once daily at night
• Duloxitine 60mg once daily in the morning
• Quetiapine 300mg once daily at night
• Diazepam 5mg prn for panic attacks

I’m suicidal, I’m self harming by cutting myself, I’m hearing my phone whispering to me again, I’m paranoid about the police coming to arrest me, I’m anxious to go outside, I’m so depressed I just want to lay in bed all day and drug myself into a big sleep.

I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place, if I tell my psychiatrist I know they will put me in an adult mental health hospital, I’m terrified of that happening. If I don’t tell anyone I will probably end up killing myself and I have mixed feelings about suicide at the moment.

Can anyone give me advice on what I can do?

Thanks for any replies.