I envy people who can say "When I get down, I ___________ and that makes me feel better". I have no idea what my __________ is, or if I even have one.

It's easy to tell people that I'm down, but what am I supposed to say when people ask "What can I do to help?"? I don't know what you can do. I don't know what will help. If I did, I would have done it before I let myself out in public. It just leads to a massive downward spiral of feeling like I'm inconveniencing people with my very existence, and don't be sad, or people will get angry that they're TRYING to help, but I'm not LETTING them, and they're just going to get sick of my bullshit and leave.

Part of that is from dealing with my ex-wife, who actually did get fed up with me and leave. It makes it difficult to imagine that anyone actually cares, but rather they're just going through the motions so they can pretend they're not horrible, self-centered people.

What do you do to get out of it? Or how do you handle the storm while you're waiting for it to break?