I can’t slow down because then I’ll stop

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I think the worse part is the waiting. Depression seems to make seconds into eternities. So I keep busy. Trying not to see the time just to notice it’s only been 30mins. Ugh. I wish I could press fast forward.

Skip the parts where I’m alone and can’t sleep. Skip all the times I feel so week.

And why’d I have to be such a good actress? Calls from my loved ones always end with them feeling sure that I’m fine. Maybe even great.

I return to my lonesome and I keep busy. I know if I have any spare time I might just find out how much I don’t want to be alive.

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