I haven't been feeling myself lately. I've been through 6 jobs in less than 6 months, I'm not bringing in enough money (in my opinion) to contribute enough in my relationship. I hate feeling like people need to take care of me. Or feeling as though they think they need to take care of me. I quit my job. I'm starting to feel like my boyfriend isn't happy with me and is done with my bullshit because honestly I'm done with myself. Why can't I find this happiness. It comes to me but is so quick to leave. I can't hold onto it anymore. It's slipping alway from me I can see it slowly going down the drain but it's too late for me to save it. I'm currently unemployed siting on my couch just sad. I don't know how else to explain it other than I'm just sad. My depression went away for about a year but baby it's back. It's not quite the same as it was, not as heavy and controlling. I still have control of my mind, feelings, and actions but there's a little sad guy hanging out with me most times. He makes me feel numb. The little bee picture helps make me feel better.