I've been getting better. I was depressed for years. Way back in high school. And I simply didn't deal with it. Things just continued to get worse. After college my parents decided to move and we ended up moving too much and that affected me even more because I couldn't find the job I wanted after graduation. I was basically a college grad relying on Walmart to keep me employed. I would get a good job and fuck it up. Last year I great job and fucked that up.

My depression affected my confidence but it also affected my hygiene and ability to write. I haven't written an article years. I've only really written 3 articles since and those where for post-grad interships that led to nowhere. My saving grace has been my parents deciding to not move and that allowed me the stability to figure my shit out. I still struggled. But finally I was able to pull myself together early fallnof last year after losing my last good job.

I was a temp in a mailroom for a huge office right down the street from where we lived and I got hired on in the mailroom in December. The manager is patient enough to keep me as long as I try. My yearsof warehouse work came in use for mailroom as well so it's a nice mix of office and warehouse. Everytime he's asked me to improve I've improved. So my job and me living with my parents has provided me with a stable environment and room to grow and fail.

I think the biggest change I've made is No Fap. I've stopped masturbating. I think this is possible because I've used maturbation to reduce my stress and anxiety. I was such a mess of a person I was in no position to date even if someone could look past my hygiene issues to date me. Before I just completely checked out of life, now I'm making investments in it slowly. No Fap was stressful at first but now I have a better pleasure and rewards system in my head. I'm now watching porn ever other day without fapping when before I would fap to porn every day sometimes more than once a day.

My current goal is to shower at least 2 - 3 times a week. Showing every day isn't necissary hygienically but I am looking to start working out so I will have to get myself to be able to shower everyday before I start doing that cause I don't want to start working out and hit a fit of depression and decide not shower. If I can make that a habit my workout won't affect my hygiene.

I know everyone isn't as privileged as I am. But I do feel if you have a stable environment take advantage of it before it's gone. If you don't, try to build a stable environment cause that will be the foundation you will need to grow and deal with depression.