I don’t fit in with anyone or any group back at home and I don’t fit in here, in the States. I’m different in a bad way...I’ve tried many different coping mechanisms but in the end they just return to the question: what am I doing?

Right now I’m living in the US so I’m trying to make real friends like actually friends and not just a bunch of college dudes vaping and drinking or not just classmates that go to the same class

I’m so lost to the point that I don’t think I can be happy anywhere...I’ve been to few places around the globe...yet I’m still depressed because I can’t imagine myself being in any environment and be happy.

I don’t know anything...I seriously...don’t know the answer...I can’t...keep this up...I’m tired of crying every night...I can’t...I don’t know...