I don't know if I'm depressed or not, sorry if this is the wrong place but I don't know where else or who else to ask.

I just feel like I'm doing the same old shit over and over, go to work, go home, drink beer, sleep. On my days off I I just drink beer and watch tv all day.

I feel like I can't do anything I enjoy any more, I used to love photography but I just don't have the motivation to do it any more. I can't even be arsed to play video games half the time.

Sometimes I think about crashing my car on the way to work just so I don't have to go in, or chopping my finger off at work so I get a few weeks off.

I haven't told my wife as I don't want to burden her with my problems but sometimes I just feel like sitting and crying. I don't want to go to the doctors because they'll probably just tell me I'm fine, I think I'm just blowing it all out of proportion, I just don't know.

Some days I feel fine, others, like today, I just want to curl up and sleep.