I used to have my best friend. Now he's moving to the other side of the country.

I used to have friends that I was close with. Now i know they either don't respect me, or they're graduating.

I used to have friends that enjoyed my company. Now I know they don't understand me at all.

I used to have theater. Now I know that none of them respect me and the only reason people tolerated me was because of my acting and singing abilities.

I used to have guitar, saxophone and piano. Now it is so much effort to improve.

I used to have my a capella group. Now they don't respect me because I blew up on them and told them off.

I used to have computer science and math. Now it's too much effort to learn.

I used to have music. Now it seems bland and doesn't help.

I used to be able to convince myself that a girl with like me. Now I know that's not true.

I used to get by by making people laugh. Now they realize that I am incapable of holding a normal conversation.

I used to be nice to everyone. Now I'm cynical and people don't like me.

I used to have the hope that maybe all of this will get better. Now I know that I'll be like this my entire life.

I used to be able to find happiness in the little things, now there's no little things to be happy about.

I used to be able to find happiness in the big things. Now I've ruined it all.

I used to want something more from life. Now I want nothing more than to disappear.

I used to have a will to live. Now it's gone with the rest of it all.