The woman I loved more than anything, left me in January. It's been 5 months, but I still care. The pain is still fresh and it was ultimately the result of her lack of understanding of my depression and stress. As well as a lack of understanding her own feelings.

This is the first relationship I've been in this deep and it's left me feeling broken. Like, I won't work for anyone else and no one's ever going to love me as much as her. I can't stop thinking about her and I feel like I've been bothering and alienating my friends by continuing to have to vent about this 5 months later. I've lived a very quiet life (I'm 23.) and I'm pretty bad at social things, so I've been relatively alone since the break up. I was alone before meeting her as well. I have good friends and stuff, but she left a hole inside of me and I feel incomplete. Tons of mixed feelings, anxiety, and the seven stages of grief have all been a daily parts of my life for these past few months. There have been points where I considered suicide as an option to end my suffering and stress, but I can catch myself before I fall any deeper. A lot of people just tell me I need time or to find a fling and revel in my youth. All of that stuff just doesn't feel right at all...

I need someone that will really listen to me for once. My cries for help aren't so much for a solution, as they are for just someone to be here listen to me and care. Not getting frustrated/annoyed with me or thinking I'm looking for all the answers or some serious contributions 24/7. My thoughts really get to me when I don't have someone to talk to. If you're willing and able, I really wish I had someone that I could keep up consistent communication and stuff with. So, my thoughts don't beat down on me so much. Tell me about your day, things you love, yourself, whatever. Please just help me stop thinking about this so much.