So I just need to get this all off my chest. I've been in college for the last 5 years and I just graduated. But with this comes a slew of other challenges. For starters, I am on my own for the first time in a long while and even though I moved in with my fiancee and her family, it has been taking a HUGE amount of mental energy to try and stay up beat about thing. Now that I am out of school, her parent expect me to get a full time job and such, which I am okay with, but the manner at which they discuss it with me isn't really all that pleasant. Its more demanding than encouraging. On top of all of that, her family is a firm believer of the "I pick on you out of love" thing, something I am not accustomed to since my family isn't like that in the slightest. There are so many thing I wish I could just say to her to tell her that I'm petrified of the future but when I try the words get lost and what words do come to mind don't even begin to express how I am feeling.

Sorry for the long ramble. But thank you for listening