I just can't take life. I feel like everyday is just a ticking time bomb where anyone and everyone can come into my life and realize that it's me that they've chosen to associate with. I see them looking up and saying "Oh, It's you. We've made a horrible mistake" It's paralyzing sometimes. Yesterday I failed at something at work and My chest got tight and I felt like I couldn't breathe. So I just left and went home and fell apart. Today I can't get moving at all because I know someone else could do my job better. I feel like I'm just waiting to make the next mistake. And then I don't do anything, and that is a mistake. So it perpetuates itself.