I'm having a really bad day, please see my post from last night if you need context. I'm scared for the future of myself and my family. I don't know what to do or how to handle it.

My brain won't stop going to dark places, and all I can do is find some justification for staying there.

Please, just give me a second chance to prove myself. Please don't let anything more happen from my transgression.... I need work... and I need to start becoming a member of society again.

No matter how hard I try, I can't forgive myself and I am concerned others will not be able to either... others that can control my future...

Please help me...