I genuinely feel like I’m losing my mind. I’m so sick of this disorder, I have bpd and adhd along with major depressive and they’re all co mimicking each other. I just want to be myself again. I’ve been on so many meds, I’ve the herbal stuff, I’ve tried therapy, I’ve tried rawdogging it, going to the gym and nothing is working. I’m so trapped in myself and my body. I miss my hobbies, I miss being happy, I just miss being a normal person. I don’t understand how one day my brain just switched on me and now I’ve been stuck like this for over 3 and a half years now. Someone please give me advice or reassurance. I can’t even get the energy to get my passive ideation out of being passive(yes I’m aware this is a relatively ‘good’ thing) but idfk. I just. I miss being myself. I just want to sleep all day and doomscrolling. I both see and feel time physically moving by and I’m helpless to do anything and I’m just losing it.