I try to be a good person to everyone around me all the time. I know I'm not the best looking person but can't one human being in my life look past that and care about me. It's so exhausting to pour myself into everyone I meet and never have a shred of decency returned to me. I just want to disappear and never feel anything ever again. I have feelings and emotions and I know there will never be a single person in my entire life that hears about any of it. No one will ever give a single fuck about me for one second. This isn't how humans were meant to live. Alone, forgotten, abandoned by the world. My mind can't take it any longer.