Title. I first started having suicidal thoughts at 18. I'm 28 now. I think about killing myself every day, multiple times a day. I'm not homeless anymore, I have a six pack, good looking, 6 foot 1, good paying job as an electrician, have a few "friends" still, girls come and go, people compliment me on my good energy but it's all just a mask I wear when I'm around people, because I don't want to bring them down. A few years ago I attempted by eating a handful of diphenhydramine pills. I woke up the next day and haven't tried since. I studied the law of attraction but I really don't think I can keep going. I'm also a male so nobody will take my feelings seriously. "Nobody cares, work harder." Nobody will give a shit anyway. This post will probably get buried but if you're seeing this, thanks for reading. I guess.