Today I've been flooded with memories of people that I've lost. All I can see is the memories of them in my head. It feels suffocating, I can see them just right there like they're standing next to me. What I wouldn't give to just curl up in a ball and snuggle in their arms and drift off into an eternal sleep, but I know that it's my time. Just knowing that doesn't make me feel any better though, instead it makes me feel worse. I hate being the strong 1 everyone relies on, I hate being the stoic foundation that supports everyone, acts as their voice of reason, being the 1 to get everyone through every hurdle in their way. I just wish I can rest permanently and be freed from all this responsibility for people older than I am. Just let me sleep. Let me rest.