Beware . . I may rant a bit Since I have no friends or anything I figured I’d vent here a bit. So my birthday is next weekend. I’ve already taken the day before off, and such. Just so I don’t have to be annoyed or anything. I even got my son’s dad to take my son so I’d have a babysitter . Attempted to plan something with a friend for them to cancel on my last minute because they stated I was being “moody” for not answering the phone . Oh and on top of that I attempted to reach out to my mom to tell her how I was getting depressed and I was upset because I felt like nobody gives a fuck about me & she read my message . And didn’t even respond. And this points it’s like .. dude . Does anybody really give a fuck about me? Should I just take my birthday to reset and just say fuck everyone . I’m trying so hard not to slip back into my self harm days considering I’m already on the verge of a manic fcking episode. Which I can’t afford to have right now. I’m tired of feeling completely fucking invisible. I’m tired of feeling like everybody is so quick to give up on me or just pretend I dint exist when I really need someone . I’m tried of fucking feeling INVISIBLE . Wtf ! I got all this stuff to my birthday , got this stupid hotel, and now I’m stuck with shit to do .. and all alone with nobody and nothing that gives a shit about me .. yeah . I’m empty