First, let me apologize for the formatting of this post. I will be using speak2text to write it.

I'm a 43 year old male I went through drug addiction homelessness being bullied I have PTSD from childhood trauma and was recently falsely accused of abusing a stepdaughter that I have raised for 13 years of my own I have a back injury that causes me pain every day I'm on antidepressants have no health insurance because I cannot work at a state of Missouri will not give me any health insurance so I cannot get my back fixed so I can work I'm losing a house that I fought so hard to buy because I can't afford the mortgage payments I'm losing my mind a little bit more everyday because I can't afford to go to the doctor or to afford my medicines I'm just a shell of a man at this point that does not care what happens to him anymore I don't enjoy anything I just want to lay down I had never get back up I just want to go to sleep you woke up every now and then by my daughter to be told that she loves me so I can tell her I love her I just go back to sleep I don't enjoy life at all anymore I don't feel loved it's hard to feel love and I'm just done with it I just can't do it anymore I have no friends no one to talk to my girlfriend is completely oblivious to the toll that the false allegations and the back pain has taken on my mental health I don't even enjoy music anymore and that used to be my favorite thing I need help and I need more than just the oh it'll be okay or the help that the hotlines give you I miss myself I miss the daughter that I raised that accused me of abuse and it's the way my life was before all of that I just want it all done and over with