Depression has always been an issue for me, but through trial and error found Cymbalta works best for treating it. Unfortunately life over the past 3 months has left me completely burned out and just all together sick of being here. I've tried new hobbies, tried making friends, tried routines, journaling, art, music, centering tactics, therapy, nothing. Because I just started a new job I can't afford any time off (contractor until hired in full time.) I survived very slim odds 10 years ago with Cancer, and all I can keep thinking is, "Why did I bother fighting?" People say that sometimes the tough decisions are the most important ones, but lately the only "tough decision" I have to make is, "Continue living". This is part vent, part look for advice. Does anyone have tips for when things look their darkest? The only things that truly bring me any kind of joy in life are completely out of my control. Because I started a new job, my only real human interaction is with those at work, where I'm forced to mask 55-60 hours a week to avoid being "that guy". Any input is appreciated.