I lost a lot of friends yesterday I think. Three of my friends stopped talking to me about 6 months ago and when a mutual friend asked why it was explained that they didn't like my depression. I had used a vent chat on a discord server we were all in and sometimes I would.mention my ideations and self hatred when I upset others. I have gotten far better and haven't used vent for a long time but after I upset these friends for missing a party they got very mad and cut me off. I apologized multiple times but was always met with silence. I left the server last night and left a message explaining why, I then got a message from a mutual friend that I assumed didn't like me anymore anyway telling me I was expecting too much of my friends with my mental health and that I ruined my own friendships because I kept "taking out" my mental health on others. They eventually told me that I burned the bridges and I should just move on. One of my closest friends is friends with the friends that left and they told me that they don't know the full story and they don't want to cut anyone out or grt involved because they feel they are just good people that did a bad thing. I don't know what to do, I feel like it's a mere matter of time before everyone is gone. If I could just apologize and have everything go back to normal I would but I ruined everything.