In a really time of my life. I’m in my 40’s, never married, and no children. I’m a really good person and told I’m very attractive. I’ve always been in long term relationships until my engagement ended. I haven’t dated in three years. I convince myself I am being selective because I want the right person, but starting to think I am just isolating myself. This year I was trying to not go out every weekend to save money and give my body a break. Now I’m finding myself never wanting to go out. I stay home alone every weekend. I now drink and do drugs along, which was never me. Am I at my bottom? I have always struggled with depression and anxiety, and take medication for both. This is different. My life is work and being by myself in any free time. My thoughts are increasingly trending to talking all my savings, quitting my job, and just partying me ass off. When runs out end things.