For years have have always been a happy and funny person. Always smiling and joking around. It brought me joy seeing that it made other happy. It was great knowing that i had that power. But then someone ask me, are you truely happy with my life? I thought long and hard about it. Wanna know what i came up with. Yes! I was truely happy. I had what i wanted. As my days went on, i found my self asking that question to myself more and more. Of course the answer was yes. The more i ask the more i realize.............that answer was not as true as i wanted it to be. Voices started getting louder in my head of all the reason i was and was not happy. It sent me to a spiraling plunder that i could not control. I found myself getting angry, sad, disappointed and depressed. I did not understand how one simple question could rattle soneones constitution so much. On the outside i am still the happy joyfull person that everyone knows. Still doing what i can to make ppl smile and laugh but for what cause. Im dien on the inside. The voices wont stop. Im questioning everything. Why? Why?WHY! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fall into a very dark place, the voices are silent. There is no need for them here. I know im not truely happy. Never will cause I. Dont. Know............................................................... I reach out but there no one their to help. They all think im ok.

Its lonely and dark down here.