For know reason!

I dont know what to do anymore. The pain hurts so much. I try to cry and let it all out, but nothing. Not a single tear. I have no one who understands what im going through. Any time i speak, i get told to man up, let my feelings out, give her time, she might be tired, do stuff for her, show her that you care, and so on. Its always about them and how to make them happy just so i can get a tiny bit back. I try so hard to be who she wants me to be that i have forgotten who i was before. Why? Why can't i be loved unconditionally like her? Why do i have to pay a price to get love. Why am i always the last choice to be made. Never i have i ever felt first. This pain is getting unbearable. I can't nor i know how to rid myself of this pain. Im tired of hurting, not being heard, and not being loved. I just..........wanna be loved for no reason at all!