I've been sick for the past two months since I kicked junk foods and sugar cold turkey so I could attempt to live a healthier lifestyle. Instead I've been having horrible sugar crashes, feeling faint, weak and lethargic. And I've been battling with horrible headaches to. I thought I would have been well by now but I'm not. I'm sicker than before. Well durning this time I got to watch my ex dump me for another women, confess to me that he's is in love with her and that he wants to marry her. I've been battling with horrible panic attacks as well so I had to give up weed at the advice of a doctor due to my severe anxiety. I'm about 28 days free without weed and I am not even happy about it. Weed was the only thing that made me happy and feel alright. Now that I'm sick I feel so alone in my Illness. It makes me not want to go on anymore. All I have left to keep me going is my lovable cat Prince Indica. I love him dearly. I feel so useless even my coworkers have distanced themselves from me and treat me as a annoyance. They don't even ask me to hang out with them anymore all because I said I can't drink right now as I'm waiting to get over my illness. My ex is out partying it up with multiple women, buying new outfits and his doctor even told him that he has a clean bill of health. While I am tormented day in and day out. I NEVER have peace unless I'm asleep (if I can manage to get some). Even cleaning my house is a struggle and I'm to poor to pay someone to clean it for me :(

I feel so isolated and alone. I want to be happy, relaxed and healthy again but I see no end in sight I don't know if I'll ever been happy or healthy again .