I'm David, 38, from Michigan. Background is in mechanical engineering...started an online store and a dumpster rental business...both born out of necessity to earn enough money to make ends meet. I feel like I have given as much as I can and it's just not enough....it's been over 10 years since I have been on a vacation. I can't afford my hobbies or interests. I live with and take care of my paralyzed ex. We get along, but there's no emotional connection, intimacy, or respect. After 1.5 years of trying to date, I am pretty much giving up on the idea of a loving and happy relationship...they exist for sure, but doesn't mean it will be part of my experience. I'm trying to continue to push myself through all the BS in life and at some point I am going to have to be a bit selfish and do something nice for myself since no one else will.

I debated about even posting anything, but figured I would. Maybe I would find some good company here or at the very least, get a little bit off my chest.