Have never been diagnosed or medicated. On the train the the doctor now to start the journey.

I have many of the hallmarks of both disorders.

Without modesty, i know when im in a good place - i am untouchable at work. People comment that im a joy to work with, a strategic genius, decisive, the best in the industry, etc. At times the level of energy may even be too much (possible mania).

But then I have other weeks / months where my motivation goes, I get tired easily, I get these voices telling me everyone hates me and I can’t bring myself to look at my email or messages.

My inconsistency WILL get me fired, and I’ll deserve it. They have even said as much.

I have tried counselling and behavioural therapy and it’s not enough.

I need to make a choice.

Either I find a new line of work that is less stressful (and likely paid faaaaar less), or I need to get diagnosed and start medication.

Anyone been where I am?

Did medication fix your work? How has your experience been?