I didn't realize that I had depression until about late last year. I had done some research and compared what I was experiencing to typical symptoms and I saw a lot of similarities. I ended up coming to the conclusion that I had depression. I skip meals, don't drink nearly enough water, either struggling to fall asleep or not wanting to get out of bed, have low energy all the time, isolate, am quick to tears, am irritability, am very insecure, etc. I've even had bad thoughts. I feel like my depression is slowly creeping back more and more nowadays and it's driving me nuts. I feel like I don't have much help for it right now. I'm usually at home where I just isolate in my room. I mostly do this as a coping mechanism I've learned over the years. I still live at home and unfortunately grew up with toxic parents. I just feel bored and miserable at home all the time. I have friends, but they're busy all the time. I have a boyfriend, but he's also busy all the time and is going through health problems at the moment causing him to not be around as much. We're also long distance.

I just don't know what to do to snap myself out of it. I do attend therapy, but it's every other week and sometimes I feel like I'm slipping back into my old ways and letting my thoughts take over.

If anyone has any advice at all, I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks for reading!