24F here, being held together by silly string at this point. I’m oh so very close to giving up on myself. I want to stop all medication, give my car up and just rot in my room. The only thing stopping me is that I’m about to have a baby and I can’t completely let myself go for her sake. But if she wasn’t in the picture? I’d be jobless letting my mental illnesses run the show. I’ve written myself off as a failure and am about to accept that I’m never going to be or do anything significant in this life. I have no desire to do anything. No one to turn to who won’t just feed me the “stay positive” bs. I want to quit. Only my sweet baby is worth staying stable for. I need a major change or I won’t last very long after she’s born…