I'm going through a really difficult time at the moment . I've felt really depressed for a long while now and it's breaking me down more and more every day. Im trying my best to be strong and do all the right things to fix my mental health ( seeing a therapist and speaking with my doctors, seeking support from family and going to the gym) and I still feel like this. Constantly. My efforts to be a better and happier person just aren't working. I feel constantly overwhelmed and exhausted from my anxiety. I feel like the most unlovable person at the moment. I'm constantly over analysing everything, from small interactions. I feel lonely because I don't have many close connections and I'm really trying hard to make friends but it feels so awkward and impossible for me. It’s so hard. I just can’t find that bond with people. I don’t have anyone I can reach out to.

Im going through an awful breakup. He left me because he’s wants to transiton and doesn’t want to be my friend because “ looking at me reminds me of everything he hates about himself”. Everytime we talk he’s so cold towards me. . I just feel so tired and overwhelmed and I just want this feeling to stop. I truly loved him so much and no he’s gone and hates me. I did nothing but support him during the relationship at the cost of my mental health. It’s so hard seeing him effortlessly move on because I want him back so badly, or I just want to feel less lonely. Or maybe I just want him to feel what I feel or at least try to understand it cause it’s always been about him during and post relationship.

Im not the type of person to want to SH but I’ve been idolising the thought of dying and SH a lot recently. in I'm so sorry for the long rant I really am. Thank you so much for reading and taking the time listen. I just truly needed to get this out. I feel so worthless constantly and like a failure. I feel so lonely.

Please help me. I feel like I’m doing all the right things I’m im trying to be as resilient as possible but right now it’s so hard.